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Why Me



I don't understand why me.  I feel as though I am so different from everyone.  I don't understand why I am so different.  Why am I not married why do I not have a boyfriend, why do I not have any children?  I want these things but feel so far away from any of it.  I just want to be like everyone else.  Does anyone else feel this way.  Does anyone else feel like they are so far away from anyone but they are standing right there?  I feel so different it is crazy.  I feel like I am crazy.  I wonder every day if I am.  I feel so alone but don't want to be around anyone.


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I understand every word for I feel exactly the same and have done for a very long time, I don't know how to change it.  

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I don't either.  I wish there was some way to know.  I am so glad someone else feels the same way I do.

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Yes I can completely relate to this. I did eventually marry and have children - sadly my marriage did not work out though. The feeling of being different, isolated, changed and apart from others really has never gone away though. I think that there are things that happen that change a person fundamentally. I refuse to believe it lessens us in anyway - but it does change how u see the world, how u relate to it and have you u respond to every person for the rest of your life. But there are many people who feel this way, many people who have suffered in similar ways. So none of us are alone and many of us are the same in this. Take heart there are many who understand. I hope you find peace

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I'm really sorry you are feeling this way, I know how horrible it is and how it can effect everyday life.  I am new to this site, in fact I have never done anything like this before and I can't tell you how encouraging it was to read your post, I thought I was just weird, that something was wrong with me.  To know someone else feels exactly the same is somehow comforting.   

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I completely relate to your post and I'm so sorry that any of us are feeling this way. I just feel incredibly detached and like no one, no matter how well they mean, can ever understand me. I know that we are all doing our best but I do wish it didn't feel so isolating to be a survivor. 

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I completely understand all that everyone is feeling. I wish so often I didn't feel like I do. I don't always know why I feel so isolated and detached. I'm back in therapy again, this time individually not a group. That is one of my focuses. I don't like the feeling at all but haven't figured out how to get rid of it, yet.

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