I don't understand why me. I feel as though I am so different from everyone. I don't understand why I am so different. Why am I not married why do I not have a boyfriend, why do I not have any children? I want these things but feel so far away from any of it. I just want to be like everyone else. Does anyone else feel this way. Does anyone else feel like they are so far away from anyone but they are standing right there? I feel so different it is crazy. I feel like I am crazy. I wonder every day if I am. I feel so alone but don't want to be around anyone.