Hi I am new here but have struggled many years with the memories of abuse. The abuse lasted 20 years of my life. My Grandfather finnally passed away and that is what ended the abuse. I have cut had a eating disorder and have tried overdose many times to deal with what is going on in my head. I have a pretty good therapist at this time that I think can help me. I have had many therapist but they have all left do to my continued testing of there rules. I want to get better and I am here to hope to get some more support. I don't have any friends because they can't seem to deal with my testing and how scared I get. To be truthful I always leave before they do so I wont get hurt. To be honest I really get hurt either way.