Today was really hard.

It's hard going to work everyday and acting like I have everything together.

I feel like a zombie walking around with no feeling.

I've pushed my boyfriend away so much that we aren't even together.

I am staying here because I have nowhere else to go yet.

I'm trying to find my own place and will leave soon.

I just feel like shit, he even said go have christmas with your family. I would but they aren't here.

I feel like I literally have no one and I'm just hanging on by a thread.

I just want to be better, back to my old self.

I wish I couldn't remember anything.

I want my life back.

I don't know if I'm strong enough for this one.