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In The Shadows Of My Mind

Nonnie

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I need some one to hear me before it's to late, no one will talk to me , no one will listen When people find out who I am they disapear. I have tried to tell someone for 60 years now but they are too afraid to know the truth I've searched for family , that might talk to me ,I just want to know what they know but no one will speak to me when I finaly do locate one of them their eighter dead or will not speak to me. They simply will not face the truth and they can not face me.. My father kept me prisioner for over 10 years. mine is a true story of deceit, sex abuse, child impirsonment and torture, revealing a fathers hidden sexual desires as a child predator and the total abondment of my mother. A story of murder and the notorious "Wilson Brothers" exposing them for the sexual predators they turly were. and ultimatly my fate as a young woman unable to cope with society in my adult life. Possessed by the demon that dwells deep within the shadows of my mind , where it lies in waite , ready to pounce at any moment into my reality.

I told a theripest once , she gave me pills and SSI and then she wrote a book about it "Unjust Treatment" and she went away I never saw her again . That was over 30 years ago now and still no one will heare me.



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Nonnie, sorry for what you have been through.

I have just joined this forum also but have been reading through some of the posts.

There are lots of supportive people who are on this site and from what I have seen, this is a safe place for you to tell your story.

To have kept it to yourself for so long must be so hard, but let the people here listen and support you.

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thankyou It's just that I dont know what to do exactly about anything and I feel so alone all the time because I can't talk to anyone but maybe this place will be good for me and I can get some answeres

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I'm sorry you feel so alone. Hope you find this place comforting.

thank you for hearing me

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Nonnie, sorry for what you have been through.

I have just joined this forum also but have been reading through some of the posts.

There are lots of supportive people who are on this site and from what I have seen, this is a safe place for you to tell your story.

To have kept it to yourself for so long must be so hard, but let the people here listen and support you.

Nonnie, sorry for what you have been through.

I have just joined this forum also but have been reading through some of the posts.

There are lots of supportive people who are on this site and from what I have seen, this is a safe place for you to tell your story.

To have kept it to yourself for so long must be so hard, but let the people here listen and support you.

thankyou write to me soon

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what should I do? should I publish my book and take the risk or keep still and let him get away with it

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I haven't left my house now for over 8 months I got my curage up one day last week , It was so sunny outside and the flowers are all blooming now. I am in an over 55 and over park and I finaly felt that I could go out for a walk . I got only about 100 feet from my house and met another woman coming around the corner I plesently said hello to her , she looked about 80 something and walked with a cain suddenly she came up close to and got right into my face almost touching me I moved away from her and she said I KNOW YOU ! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN i ASURED HER THAT SHE WAS WRONG BUT SHE INSISTED THAT SHE KNEW ME AND SHE SAID THAT SHE LOVED ME AND THAT SHE WAS SORRY FOR ME ! I do not know who this person is . I thanked her polightly and told her that I had to go . I did not return to my house at that time as I did not want her to know where I lived so I walked on untill she was away from my house .I returned home and I have not been back out sence that day will I never be free ?I never learned to ride a bike I cant go for simple walks I want to move compleatly away and live at the beach and let the water wash it all away I think It would be peacefull there

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