So tonight was the first night I went on a date since my assault about 10 months ago.. I was so nervous but the guy was so sweet. I met him there even though he kept asking to pick me and we had a really nice time. He kept complimenting me and we never ran out of things to talk about. He didn't try to kiss me when he walked me to my car which I really appreciated. But something happened when I got home. I just started crying.. I don't know why and I cant explain it but I felt so sad inside.. Maybe I'm not ready to start dating? Maybe I'm not ready to let someone in. I am still so terrified of trusting people in and I hate it..