You were everything to me. I trusted your love
But no, you come first, and no one dare step above
You were my world. No exceptions, you were IT
Until I realized everything, you would never admit
You did things. Unspeakable, yet they pour from my soul
My innocence..what?.. you robbed me of it. Whole
You damaged me, but who was ever to know
No one could; my non reflective exterior never let it show
You had me trained, in fact, a silent monkey is what I played
Until i thought screw i
I was there, ...where were you?
Faces breaking, and not into smiles
Furniture takes flight,....yet has no wings
Nor do I, with fright amidst, I remain firmly grounded, without flight...
I was there,.... where were you?
Walls shaking, due to "homestyle" earthquakes....
Floors slippery, yet there's not a drop of moisture in sight excluding tears....
No wax on the floors, not including emotions' snuffed candle residue..
I was there,...where were you?
"Stunner" shades were used to
Distorted mirrored images of my past feel closer than they appear
The calibrated scale of life reads Error due to the overwhelming weight on my shoulders
Enlightening candles of thought flicker too bright to behold and burn too hot for grasping
Exploring unknown territory, has given me knowledge that is Great , but also weakens with it's force
Moving mountains, with motivation of success on the Horizon, I have reached goals of a new height
Grabbing the bull by the horns has deeply penetrate
I sent you a message and friend request after you deleted me.(Just like I said in my other post I am a glutton for punishment.) So "what did I do to you?" has been answered, loud and clear.
I married your son. I knew it had to be that since those pics have been up since the day of the wedding and you had the nerve to still have my sister listed as a friend so I know you knew as soon as we were married, due to all the web updates. So, what I did, was share my joy in a social media type of way a
So I reactivated an old social site account today and uploaded some life event photos. Well my husbands mother (whom we have become estranged with due to abuse knowledge surfacing) deleted me as a friend from her list as soon as she could. I am just hurt and pissed that she would have the nerve to cut the last absolute tie she has with her son, without warning, or just the fact that she chooses to not communicate with us at all. And we just got married a few months ago. Ya think she would care,
You died a little over two years ago, and since that wife of yours (ie: my mother) donated your pathetic, filthy, lifeless body to science,(so there isn't even a grave for me to visit of yours to spit, or tap dance on) I figure why not pay my respects this way.
It brought me and my sister closer, even if only for a moment. As sick as that may be, this is all you left for us to feel towards you. You were hateful and callous. Why would I mourn your death? You violated what was given to you as p