So... Friday night, my boyfriend and I went to the movie theater for the 9pm showing of Deadpool 2. The theater is in our town, which made it a convenient location.
We went in to our theater, and as we were looking for the seats, I saw my former best friend's brother. M. He was also a former best friend...
As we walked by their aisle and towards the back, I gripped the back of my boyfriend's shirt. We got into an aisle and took our seats, and my boyfriend turned around and looked at me.
So I was curious and creeped on my former best friend's instagram...
I don't know why I thought anything would be different. I look on there, in hopes to see that one day, that they would break up...
But no, she still chose to see him, the monster who sexually assaulted me. She still is with me, and I'm angry...
It's upsetting, and it makes me physically ill to my stomach...
But I can't wish bad on them, because the court date is coming up, and all I can do is be hopeful that everything
I'm guilty of being insecure.. I know I am. My boyfriend knows I am.
Yesterday, I texted him, "I can't do this anymore." He texted me that we should talk in person.
We met up at a sushi restaurant.. I thought he was gonna buy me dinner, but come to find out, he wanted to talk there over some drinks. I told him this wasn't the place for it, because I could end up crying..
So after we finished our drinks, we went out to his car to talk.
I talked about my problem with the girl on his FB,
We have been together for 7 months... and yet, he can't say the "L" word.
I slipped during a Christmas party in a drunken stupor... and he told me it was too soon.
I said it, again, to him around January.
Again, he said it was too soon. He told me, "I can't say it until I actually feel it. I can't even comprehend such a word, there's no way I can just throw it out so easily."
I brought it up to him last month, how he hasn't said it, and he accused me of trying to pressure him into sa