I am feeling the heaviness again. It comes to me in cycles and it grips me and it weighs me down and it feels inescapable.
I am trying to hold on to hope but life can be so difficult sometimes, it can feel so hopeless.
I'm not working currently but my bills keep piling up, I'm still waiting to hear back on a job that I thought I had gotten but they haven't said much else and I'm just waiting to start working again, desperate for it because I am so broke. I'm in school but I've sudden