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There are times when I feel like the world is crashing down on me. 

I ask myself or whoever is listening, why would this happen to me?

Was I meant to be given this burden because I was meant to suffer?

I have been told that this will only make me stronger.

I have tried to be strong. 

I am so tired.

Yet I know that I cannot give up. 

I have to show people that I can live a happy life.

Inside it feels like I am being torn apart.

Torn apart to shreds..

Sometimes, I hear myself say that maybe I deserve this..

All this pain is showing me how to be a good person and to love those who love me.

All my life no one ever understood me. 

They always tried to fix me. 

Like I was some broken object that needed some glue.

I hated myself for tearing my family apart. 

I blamed myself for the longest time. 

He is the one who is sick and to blame. 

He took my innocence and childhood.

I will not let him take my future.

I have met someone who I know in my soul that he is my light. 

To find someone who can help you move past your darkness is someone to keep in your life.

I have found my light. 

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Lost in my mind

There are times when I catch myself staring outside and looking at nothing. All that I am thinking about is how jumbled my mind is. For all these years I have been lost. I can't explain why I am the way I am. When my screams in my sleep wake up my family how do I tell them? I play it off that it was just a nightmare. It never is. Someone close to, during an argument, told me that I need to stop being the victim after all these years. As if I have some on and off switch. I wish that I knew how to



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