I don't normally post a spontaneous blog entry...usually I save these periodic updates for when I find that I've been struggling or something has 'clicked,' or unless I feel there's generally more to say. Sometimes, though, it's okay to post the shorter entries, too, and in the interests of keeping the mind-clutter down to a minimum, I want to share a little thought I had this morning...a thought that didn't immediately register, but instead was automatically shuffled back to
Okay, friends - I lied.
I FULLY intended to be here and updating a day or two before Thanksgiving, but WHEN do things go exactly as planned!? I'm just glad that I was able to extend to you all a proper Thanksgiving greeting in some way or another before the holiday. Additionally, it is my hope that you all made it through the holiday unscathed and that you're all gearing up for Christmas!!
I'm here now, so that's what matters.
My Thanksgiving started off horribly. It was s
*Please be advised that this entry deals with teenage/child death, accidents, and fear. If any of these trigger you, please skip it or save it for a time when you are in a better frame of mind.*
Today, my seventeen-year-old son confided in me that two of his friends were killed in a car accident as recently as a day or two ago, in our old hometown in New York.
He wasn’t emotional or a blubbering mess about it, but he did pull up the Instagram account of the sister of one
I spent most of yesterday pouting.
See, on Tuesday, I spent most of the day out...went to visit my brand-new niece, along with my slightly older baby niece and my nephew for a little while when he got home from school. Of course, Oompa was there as well as my brother-in-law, as the new Daddy is enjoying some paternity leave while they are adjusting to being a family of four. Anyway, we're currently a dieting family - Oompa of course, is dieting in order to talk herself out of having baria
As many of you already know, I spend a good portion of every day just thinking. You could call it self-meditation I guess, but without the breathing exercises as most of my current thoughts do not warrant 'calming' breaths. I just find myself sitting silently, staring into space, and just zoning. This past week has been one of those weeks where a lot of thinking and reflection has been done. I am now finding that I'm feeling uncertain about some things - if not uncerta
I'm having a little bit of difficulty with my 'assignment.' The counselor I saw last week gave me something to ponder for the next time we were to meet (there is no appointment set, yet) and I was happy to have something to occupy my thoughts with and even more giddy when she said I could write it out! I suspect she understands the level of effectiveness writing has on me, so she was quick to encourage some 'writing homework' on my way out. I accepted the assignment
***Please skip this if you're generally uncomfortable with talk of periods, bleeding, medical procedures involving the female reproductive system. I'm trying to make this mild and non-triggering but you just never know. So proceed with caution!***
Okay, guys, I'm nervous.
Ain't gonna lie, I'm seriously trying to swallow the lump in the back of my throat, with my new doctor's name on it. If the roles were reversed, I'd probably be the one saying, "it'll be all right, it's gonna be
Here's hoping that June is wrapping up nicely for you all!
It has been an absolutely insane month between trying to get the back yard finished, my son's high school graduation, the end of the school year for all students, having yet another handyman/contractor show up to install a transfer switch for our new generator (our VERY early Christmas present from Oompa) as well as a ceiling fan in our family room so that we don't melt this summer. And I also got the bal
Today's been somewhat productive.
I probably should be getting ready to wind down and attempt to sleep but instead, my fingertips are tingling; if nothing else, it's a signal that my brain will simply not allow me to sleep until I've said my piece.
I'll start with this backstory...
Lately, my fiancee's relationship with her boss has shifted more toward a developing friendship than strictly professionalism. This woman is J's direct supervisor, but J is also her 'right hand,' she
I'm not sure which to believe, first.
The fact that I received an email from the University that I applied to transfer into this coming fall - at 12:02am in the morning. Someone was apparently in the office VERY late, despite this coming week being Spring Break...
.....that I've been accepted for the Fall 2019 term and will be working toward my Bachelor's of Science in Social Work.
I've previously made this goal of mine known - but until a few nights ago, it was si
Let's all raise our hands if we're done with Christmas!
If it were within my capacity to turn back-flips, I'd be doing that right now. I'd likely end up in traction but it'd be worth it, compared to how I was made to feel this past Christmas season.
I'm more happy that it's over. It was over before it started, if that makes any sense...
I'll further explain.
Most of you know that this was our first Christmas in our new home.
The house was beautifully decorated. Th
Oh, let me tell you…if my mind were ever called upon as a witness, a mistrial would be declared.
There are more holes in there than in a block of Swiss cheese!
Furthermore, if my mind took the form of a live being, I’d describe it as most resembling a hyperactive dog or cat that spends ninety-five percent of its time running in rapid circles, not necessarily in the same pattern. Just nonstop, frantic running. This way? No, that way! Nah, wait….THAT way! Up! Down?
Sending my usual apologies for not having updated in a while. For the first time in several days, I can sincerely say we’re thawed out. The new boiler is working nicely - we now have heat and hot water in addition to the restoring of our electricity and internet. The kids went back to school this week; a lot of families in the area didn’t have power for the entire week last week following the winter storm, so the school district had some mercy on us all and closed the sch
Hey, guys! Me, again. Did you miss me?
So...here's a question.
Have you ever gone on the same drive a million times? It's usually something as simple as dropping a kid off at school or running to the store for a gallon of milk. You know, it's a routine at this point...you take the same route, you know where to turn, you've nicknamed the landmarks/street signs/other distinguishing areas surrounding you so that while you navigate and drive, you can kind of 'reserve' some of your a
So sorry for the lapse in communication lately! I've been sort of lurking (and I'm not sure I like that word, either - seems almost too 'creepy' to use on a site like this one) and have been doing more reading of than responding to but as always, my thoughts and well wishes have remained with you all. I just needed a little time to adjust to and process the downswing of last week, when I was dealing with the passing of yet another anniversary. Happy to say that sleeping has g
Say it isn't so...a blog entry that has MOSTLY nothing to do with my children. I say mostly because I'll start off by saying a couple quick things about them, just as a courtesy follow-up of my last blog entry. You're welcome!
The Son is still accident-free, but that's only because we got about six inches of snow this week and he hasn't driven since he got his license. I refuse to let him drive when there's even a small amount of snow on the roads. Mostly because I've got about 23 year
Shouldn’t trigger, unless language/the discussion of guilt bothers you.
Today, I spoke to my mother, also known fondly as the ‘Oompa Loompa.’
We were trying to finalize this week’s Thanksgiving plans. A couple entries ago, I explained how she is still breast-feeding my 30 year old sister, who just had a baby of her own. She goes there every day, cooks for her, does the housework, the laundry, et cetera, because apparently my sister doesn’t quite know yet how
Here's hoping you're all well this week! How am I? I don't know, honestly. Mentally, I'm fine. Physically, I'm falling the fuck apart and I don't understand why. You would think that losing over 40 pounds (yes, yes, I did...consider that your small, harmless weight update without details!) would make me feel better - and it has. But lately, after bowling, my left hip has been hurtin' something awful. It's usually fine if I sit stationary, but getting up to get a water r
A Happy Belated Mother's Day to all of you who are either mothers, stepmothers, grandmothers, aunts, godmothers, fathers pulling double-duty, babysitters, to anyone at all who loves and nurtures a child...be it for a lifetime or simply for a few hours at a time, it matters none...yesterday was all about you guys - and I hope someone took the time to let you know how appreciated you are! The Son and Daughter got me a beautiful bouquet of flowers as well as a lovely card - the ca
Wow. I haven't been paying much attention to my blog lately. My sincerest apologies. But in my defense, sometimes having nothing to say is a good thing, right?
Lots happening here. Nothing major but still, small things worth mentioning for those who delight in reading about my day-to-day insanity.
Will start off with a small story.
I finally (and this wasn't easy) allowed my son to take my car to his father's house - it's a very short drive down the road from my house to the W
It feels like the last couple of months has gone by in a blur. I'm starting to realize the true meaning of the statement, 'too much time on your hands.' When I had it, (it being time) my mind wouldn't shut up. I had so much more to say. I looked at things sooooo differently. I'd have TIME to sift through whatever was swimming around in there - now, all that's in there is numbers, formulas, political definitions, social work case studies (hypothetical ones), papers that w
My sincerest apologies for my lengthy absence. Yes, it's happened before and it's likely to happen again, but we all know that I always, always come back to my writing space - I will go through times where I do not really know what to write but as soon as I sit down, I am often hit with a little reminder of how much of a help it is to process things through blogging. Sometimes it takes a little while for things to start to flow, sometimes I have to get up and return the fol
Today's Wednesday...weigh-in day! Which means, update day!!!!!! Yay, aren't we all excited?
(Although I'll try and blog more often about stuff other than my diet woes or kids.)
I had a few choice words for the scale this morning, but it will live to see another week. See, I lost 1.6, which isn't bad considering we (J and I) had our Valentine's Day date on Monday night. We went to the local Red Lobster - and everything I ordered/ate was counted in my point total. Lemme tell ya, i
Here's the update I promised you all in Monday's post-Super Bowl blog entry.
It was either going to be a rant or a rave. See, I've been down this road multiple times. The rant will likely come in a future entry, when I've done everything right and the numbers aren't going down anymore. That'll likely happen when I've plateaued and it's time to incorporate more physical activity into my daily routine. For today, we've been hit with Winter Storm Liam, so I see some shoveling in my very n
Hello my friends...hoping each of you are having a lovely day!
I've had a draining couple of days, so please, please (with fat free whipped cream on top) forgive me for not updating this sooner. Fear not, though - I've spent some time thinking up actual blog-worthy topics non-related to my kids (although they may be mentioned from time to time) or my current weight-loss journey.
All I'll say about the latter, though, is last week, I only dropped. One. Stinking. Pound. Perhaps that