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It has been a really long time since I last posted here. Three years. It seems like so much has changed, but at the same time I still feel it like it was yesterday. I felt like I should update this, because I have made a lot of progress and maybe someone else could find hope in it. The last six months have felt like an entirely different lifetime. After one of the lowest points in my life, after admitting myself to the hospital in fear of myself, I finally went to a doctor. I'm now taking medica
I feel like lately, I can't keep going with this. Remembering, reliving my nightmares.. I want to heal, but I also just want to forget. I want to pretend nothing ever happened. I feel like I dont belong here.. I dont want to belong here.. I dont want to accept that I belong here..
I have few memories of the year I was abused. So bear with me as I share my story in pieces.. as I begin to remember.
It was summer again. He's driving me home. I start saying that things aren't working out between us. I'm terrified of his reaction. He turns away from my house and starts driving in the other direction, and once we are far away, he stops. He locks the doors. He won't let me out. I'm panicking. I tell him I can't do this anymore, I'm crying from fear and he looks so angry. He