a few years ago dillan, my alter thats kind of like my own personal therapist, asked what was stopping me from telling others about "it". so far these are the reasons that i can name off the top of my head (if theyre crossed out then theyve been taken care of):
fear of being judged/made fun of/etc
fear of losing close friends
fear of making things awkward
i was just trying to forget about it, so not talking about it would help me forget about it
fear that i would dissociate in front of someone while talking about it
feeling guilty when talking about it
dillan has helped me kind of control when i dissociate and has also helped me learn that just keeping it to myself is not good and wont help me forget at all. we are still working on the other 4, so hopefully sometime soon i wont be afraid of those things anymore.