1:32PM: Friday and Saturday literally went the same exact way. Mom and her husband arguing in the morning over money problems. Then we left to go hang out with our gaming buddy.
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( yesterday's entry) 3:26 PM: saw my councilor today. Or is he a therapist?.... I don't even care what the difference is. Cut the session short. Third time in a row I did that. It's getting harder to see him when I can already see what his advice is going to be. Told him mom thinks someone broke into our house, and how I think that's bullshit and its most likely her husband that stole my grandmothers pills. And of course he says to move out and rent a cheap little place for me and my brother..... He's an idiot. I asked him if he's a home owner. He says yes. I asked if he knew what rent was like in today's day. He confirmed he did not..... This guy is speaking from no knowledge or experience. We don't want to rent a place we are trying to save enough to buy our own house and pay our own mortgage. Talking about these things seemed so pointless. I'm not some abused child from a screwed up family. There doesn't seem to be a real reason for me to pursue more counciling.
7:19 PM: ( yesterday's entry ) promised myself I'd do this every day and already failing at it. Doing this while I'm playing a game. Today went well. In fact better than expected. Sleep last night sucked as always. Getting sick of that. Is it normal to not be able to sleep as easily when you get older?
( I wrote this yesterday) Last week when I went to see my councilor mom was pissed off and flipping out about stuff I can't control, and saying things like how she's gonna leave " all you guys " because she's " sick of this shit ". It's all stuff that has to do with her husband. A man i refuse to acknowledge as my stepfather.
I believe in doing bad things to bad people.
i believe in the death penalty. Firmly. I wish it was used more often.
i believe that the world doesn't have enough good people in it to be worth being a part of.
i believe god is either a bully or doesn't exist.
I use to believe family was the most important thing on earth.... now I believe in only myself..... And one day I will disown my family and live alone on some hill out in the country.