In my head I wrote this in the style of open mic poetry night sort of thing. But this one will never be spoken by me. I wish I could though, even if I just heard it out loud.
I don't know how to really BE with someone anymore.
Something subtle starts to grip my mind and wipes it clean
it's the quietest scream I've ever felt.
He was supposed to love me...
and he was suposed to care for me...
and he was supposed to know the most about me...
I made it through the first
"You were too young
In the last year or so I've gained quite a bit of weight. I now have stretch marks all over because of how quickly I gained it. I didn't try to gain it it just kind of happened because I went off my medication for a while because I kept not getting to the doctor. I was afraid of the fact that I didn't have insurance. I used to look in the mirror and love myself but now I look in the mirror and I see something completely unattractive. I didn't wear shorter shorts this summer, I didn't wear my fav
The other day my mom asked me "Remember that time you ran away and the cops found you down at that park?" the questions she asked blurred into "I think I know what happened but I 1) can't believe it and 2) Will if you open up to me". She's not so eloquent though and asks things like "How did you get all the way out there?" and "What were you doing out there?".
That has always been something that comes up in my memory frequently. But when she asked about this I couldn't bring myself to tell her