I was abused by my step father ages 11-16. He was the only father I had ever known. He has been with my mom since she was a few months pregnant with me. Is this still incest since he was only a step father or not? I don't want to share anything in the wrong forum.
Sometimes I feel like I am on top of the world and that I am not upset or hurt or feeling anything negative about what happened to me. Sometimes I feel like I can't even get out of bed in the morning. Can't put on clothes or even stand up. Sometimes I can't sleep at night. Sometimes I can't bear to be touched by my husband. Sometimes I feel like I absolutely HAVE to be touched by my husband. Like I an't feel okay about anything particularly out relationship unless we are being intimate. I k
I wrote this last night. I had a jumble of thoughts in my head and writing always makes me feel a little better about things. As I started writing it came out like maybe I was writing for someone or even to someone. That wasn't really my intention. But I thought I might like to post here for others to see. I don't know that it really fits anywhere though. Imagine the most terrible thing that has ever happened to you. Now imagine while this terrible thing was happening you didn't understand it