This is my first time on this website and I am really hoping that I can find some help here.
It has been about 4 months since it happened.
I still feel just as lost, confused, and hurt as I did the day it happened.
I am pulling from wells of strength that I didn't know I had and i'm not sure how much longer they will last me.
The pressure I feel, the lies that have been told, the hurtful things that have been said...
I am tired of pretending that everything is okay-I know tha
I have become a master at juggling.
Court cases, friends, "recovering", school, internship, work, the list goes on and on.
It feels impossible to keep them all up in the air and I know that one is going to fall taking the rest down with it.
I just want to get out of this mad house and feel like myself again.
It infuriates me that I did nothing wrong here and yet I am having to deal with all the fallout.
thats all for now because I dont know where to go from here.
(trying to) just keep s
This has been the first bad dream in awhile.
It's the one place where my mind seems to accept what has happened to me.
It was scary and terrifying and I don't know how to stop it from happening.
It has surpassed just reliving the event, or hearing his voice.
It is people talking to me about it-judging me and telling me I should have been more careful-done something to stop it.
I know it's just a dream but it's like getting assaulted over and over again.
When will I finally start to f