i'm liquorice. i joined a fair while ago (although i really don't remember doing so!)
and now i would like to be officially here.
i am 20 years old, live in the UK and am studying for a degree in Biology (with some History thrown in). i am now having to take a year out of my studies - turning a 3 year course into 4.
i have been a member of other forum groups, but feel a bit overwhelmed and would like to just choose one and go with it. i love the name 'after silence', and you all look wicked - so i'm choosing you!
having had a quick read through some topics already, and i can't believe how many of these apply to me. i have been having quite a rough time of things lately, with memories coming back (through flashbacks, nightmares etc) and my abusers targeting me once again.
i should explain that i was sexually abused from the age of 8 until 13, have have been raped repeatedly for the past few months. i am now safe however, and in dire need of some support and comfort i guess. in the past i have dealt with (or not, as the case may be) my emotions through SI, a very poor relationship with my body and food and have been and am severely depressed. i am not yet having therapy, as the NHS waits are fairly long in my neck of the woods. hopefully i will be able to begin the healing process soon.
i just want to say hello to everyone and that i very much look forward to meeting and chatting with you all. i'm already hugely amazed (and saddened) by how many people are here, and how similar many of our experiences are. this gives me great hope and comfort in the knowledge that we are not alone, and there are many lives to be led to the full here.
we're survivors, so lets work together