Thank you guys!
And talking about it is okay, actually listening to what Im typing/saying is hard for me. If that makes sense. Talking through the triggers and problems from the incident also causes severe problems for me. (Shaking, crying, etc.)
Im lurking around the forums right now, lots of good stuff I see. I cant describe the words that I feel for the people who have lived through things worse than me, its truly amazing. And I have the utmost respect for all of you. And the fact that you can look your fears in the eyes. I have been able to want/talk about my triggers completely.