Hello. I'm new here and so happy I found this place. I'm coming from a different forum that could be downright hurtful at times. It almost pushed me over the edge recently and that's why I went looking again.
I REALLY like how the sub-forum types of sexual assaults has all those threads. That's a great idea and I will definitely be making a stop in a lot of them. Thank you to everyone who requested threads in that area.
A quick background (trauma, non-abuse):
*Custody battles until I was 11 years old
*Grandma (legal guardian) died when I was 7
*Mom died when I was 11 (AIDS)
*Grandpa died when I was 14
*sexual, physical, and emotional abuse as far back as I can remember
*trafficked/prostituted here (USA) and abroad (in Europe)
*beatings with whips, chains, belts, etc. that lead to a fractured vertebra
*saw someone killed
*forced to kill/beat others
*forced to eat bodily fluids
*Needing to "deserve" things like food, water, showers, etc.
*HORRIBLE self esteem
*self injury starting in elementary, worst at age 14 when I was cutting. I infrequently cut now
*anorexia helped to stop the flashbacks I got while eating, but landed me in in-patient (summer 2005). I no longer get flashbacks so eating isn't (usually) a problem (unless I don't deserve it)
Graduated college with 3.33 GPA
have full time job with benefits
training for a powerlifting meet (at least I'll be strong physically)
going back to school for physical therapist degree
one of my abusers is dead