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About Peppermint

  • Birthday 04/13/1988

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    Lacrosse, Swimming, Piano, Drawing, French, International Relations, Dogs, Animals, some TV shows (Bones), Music,

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  1. Hello and welcome back! I do the same thing. I will go for months or even a year or two without visiting and then out of the blue return. Hope you find many new friends and support!
  2. Stress Level On High Alert

    I am stressed. It is not surprising, but it should only be slight anxiety, not overwhelming rip-my-own-heart-out consuming anxiety. I am switching barns, complicated by the fact that I work at my barn, and everyone else has been leaving my barn. In general, the quality of care is not the best, and there is stuff all over (broken mowers, discarded furniture) so it doesn't surprise me but normally I stayed because I have no where better to go that I can afford. Well, that changed. Because I get paid per stall, it means I'm paid less now, so board is more. Also a working board spot opened up across from my work (save on gas, see my horse me, and the barn has trails so all pluses). But I just had a talk with the barn owner which stressed me out to no end (I put it off for a week because it was stressing me out). And the barn manager knowing will be even harder. We've developed a working relationship (talking together, friendly relationship) and it is hard to feel like I am throwing that away. I know what goes said about people who leave the barn, and that will hurt, but certainly isn't a reason to stay. The knew barn is beautiful, I'm able to work off all of my board (which will make the financial burden of owning a horse so much less), it isn't out of my way to go to, and there are trails to ride on, including the ones on my work's property. Plus I have someone to trail ride with. All the reasons favor going. I just feel so anxious about it. Like I'd rather withdraw and never make a decision than do what I have just done. Makes no sense, I know. But it is a very paralyzing sense.
  3. Thank you both. I have found that, though right now he is also the source of a lot of financial stress. He does give me the courage I need though to make hard decisions. If I can stand up to a 1100 lb gelding, I can certainly stand up to _____ .
  4. Thank you Skyfeather. I've had met many "bullies" in life. She was the last of the ones in high school. I guess it is different just because I know what happened to her. I usually take bets that most of the others ended up working low wage jobs or in detention facilities. But if I actually knew what tragedy had beffallen them, I would probably (again) be less glib. I will try and not let it affect me negatively.
  5. This Falls In Etc

    So sometimes I hate Facebook. I was on my Facebook and among a lot of my friends there had been a support rare genetic diseases thing going around. And I went looking for the root, mostly due to curiosity, and wondering what I was missing. The root was a high school enemy of mine, who beat me up several times, and I couldn't have cared less when she left our high school. In fact I was thrilled. I heard she had a kid, but was not really interested. I have not even been back for a reunion. What I didn't know was she has a rare genetic disease, and her child probably won't live into adolescence. Now I feel like an evil person. I added her on Facebook, but it isn't as if I talk to her, even though the graduating class I was in only had 35, and the whole school only had 120. I feel guilty, as if somehow I wished this upon her (because everytime she pushed me into the ground I hated her). And now she is going through a very personal hell. Anyways, just feeling guilty, and sad.
  6. My Wonderful Quarter Horse

    So, I finally fell off my horse. It was a silly mistake. I should have known better. He was overjumping a jump, as he often does, and I got too far forward, and got bounced off over his shoulder. He promptly stopped and began to eat grass right beside me as I gathered myself to get back up. For those of you who have never seen my horse: and (Sorry for the poor quality!) I still love my horse to death, and would not trade him for a well broke push button horse for anything. (How boring.) Just a short introduction to my horse obsessed life, though I no longer live on a horse farm or manage a barn. (Thank God, most days.) Take care, Peppermint
  7. I'm mostly in the survivor category with a few of the victim patterns of behavior hanging on. That's good to now, thanks. My Therapist gave me a list of traits that are common among survivors. I have to find it, it was good. Thanks again!
  8. I am new to the forum! I am kind of nervous, but I'll get over that quickly I'm sure. A little about me is that piano and art are two of my hobbies, I LOVE sports, especially swimming and lacrosse. And Scrabble and card games are always fun. Anyways, I have to run, so that's it for now! -Peppermint