I am a little apprehensive about joining here. I don't think I am brave enough to tell my story any time soon and I have such a hard time putting a voice to my feelings about it. So, some might wonder why I am here. Anyway, this is just an introduction and I think I can handle that. I am 33 year old special education teacher for emotionally disturbed children. I have earned two bachelors degrees in psychology and special education. I enjoy reading, crocheting and working in the children ministry at church. So, I keep myself very busy but, lately, it is getting harder and harder to escape my past. I really believed that if I became a better person I could overshadow my childhood. Make up for it so it would disappear. But that didn't happen and I have finally had to start exploring what happened and how it has affected me.